College Decisions... Eep!

So my parents want me to accept my admission to Sonoma State today! I'm so nervous because I'll be deciding where I'll be living and spending my time for the next four years. It's a really frightening prospect and my heart races just thinking about it.

I guess part of the reason is that, though I love Sonoma State, I'm still not entirely sure if that's the place I want to go. I haven't visited any of the other colleges I've gotten accepted to (though a few I'm sure I'm not going to) and I feel like I should see my options before deciding. The problem with that is that time is running out fast. I have to make a decision by May 1st and I don't have enough time to go see all the colleges I want!

One good thing is I've narrowed down my decision between two schools: Sonoma State and University of the Pacific. They're both amazing schools with everything I want. Here's a list of pros and cons for each.

Sonoma State Pros:
1. Close to home but far enough away.
2. Has my intended major.
3. Very spacious, inviting, and beautiful.
4. Dorms are well accommodated.
5. Rec room looked fantastic.
6. Very up to date with technology.
7. Brand new music hall.
8. Two of my friends are going there so I won't feel too newbish.
9. Not as expensive as most schools.

Sonoma State Cons:
I couldn't think of anything.

University of the Pacific Pros:
1. Prestigious.
2. Amazing music program.
3. Has my intended major.

University of the Pacific Cons:
1. Far away (about two-three hours).
2. Accepted me for the wrong major (and didn't fix it).
3. Extremely expensive (about 40 grand per year).
4. Haven't seen the school (bad on my part).
5. I won't know anyone at all.

Wow. I guess Sonoma State is pretty much the one I should go for. I see nothing wrong with it, while University of the Pacific has a lot of cons. So why am I so uncertain? Maybe it's just nervousness or anxiety. Or both. Or maybe it's because I feel like if I accept my admission to Sonoma I won't be making the right decision for me. I don't want to consult anyone else, either, because I tend to side more with others than with myself. Damn it, I hate being so indecisive! But then again, it IS college...

. . .

Okay. After a moment of serious thought (and reference to the Sonoma State website) I think I've made my decision. I will go to Sonoma State University for the next few years to get my degree in whatever major I intend. I'm still nervous and excited and anxious, but I'm beginning to feel that this school is right.

Now, to accept my admission. Oh dear.

Toodles.